Tuesday, November 9, 2021

#100cupsofcoffee // 2021 shots of espresso ☕️

100 Cups Of Coffee is my journey through divorce, dating & self-discovery. 

My single journey began in 2015 when I decided to leave my husband & again when Ocean Eyes broke up with me in May 2020. It all feels like forever ago. The ghosts of a life in transition.
The year 2020 / 2021 brought all the self-love. I'm proud of where I am, guided by therapy and a newfound self-awareness. Soon after leaving my husband, I was ready to find the love I felt I never received. I quickly fell into the Tinder trap. Today it’s the Bumble bubble. Will I find my person this time around? Boundaries in place. May the odds be ever in my favor.
Not every cup can be an entire pot. Here are my espresso shots of 2021. ☕️
C1 - My 1st hike date. DO NOT GO ON A FIRST DATE HIKE. ๐Ÿฅพ
*C2 - During our 1st virtual date, J3 texts me after two weeks of silence๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿป‍♀️. 2nd date, we go to brunch in person. He was late and under dressed. Goodbye.
*Muy Apasionado ๐Ÿ’‹- 2 back to back dates. He kisses me on a dark hidden pathway. I'm not feeling it, then he proceeds to pressure me to go back to his place. With his pet SPIDER and brother. Um, no thanks.
*Plant Dad ๐ŸŒฑ - He's not there when I showed up at the restaurant, he lived across the street. He waited until I got there...excuse me? It took a couple more times to learn that being late is a deal breaker for me.
๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿฑ - He was fine. One 2 hour date and that's a wrap. He's too preoccupied with his foster kittens.
*⏰ - I walk up and straight away know the date is doomed. It is a vibe thing. I make it super quick. 1 hour. Saw Payton Manning, though. Pretty cool. ๐Ÿˆ

Co-worker - I really wanted this to be a date after 3 months. It wasn't, but I had a good time. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

Fellow PSU Alumni - Came the night after Rocketman, he had no chance. ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿป‍♀️

*Soldier -  He was late. Ew again + I was still in a Rocketman daze 2 days later. At the end of the night he finally touched me, I felt something, but Rocketman. ๐Ÿš€

*The Insta Famous Dog + Owner - The Insta Famous Dog got way more attention than I did. Not a fan.๐Ÿถ

CEO - We have coffee together. We have sushi together that same night where he proceeds to say he doesn’t like living with someone AND doesn’t want to get married. Ok BYEEEE. ๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿผ

*Drive-by - We have tacos together for 2 hours. I never hear from him again. Not mad about it. ๐ŸŒฎ

Gifts - I try to make the most of this one, even with him showing me HIS side of the Bumble app. WTF? As we leave, he asks me to come with him to his car. He has gifts for me. He gives me wine and coffee. PERFECT if it wasn’t our 1st date. I get freaked, break it off, but still enjoy the coffee and wine. ☕️๐Ÿท

*๐Ÿคท๐Ÿป‍♀️ - He’s super cute in his profile, shows up looking different somehow. We have a yummy dinner. The bill comes and sits at the edge of the table awkwardly for waaaaaay too long, I offer to have us split. He walks me to my car for an awkward kiss. He breaks it off. Whew! ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ

*Pink ๐Ÿฐ - We have an impromptu Father's Day walk in the park. A week later I move to his neighborhood. He grabs sushi, I get wine and we have a sunset dinner in the park. Ending with THE most passionate dark corner encounter. He literally sweeps me off my feet (he's a foot taller than me). 3rd date, he picks me flowers on his way to my place for the 2nd time! ๐Ÿ’ But something feels off and he decides to call it. I would have kept going.

Designer - I could have really liked you, but the following day came Wolly Willy. ๐Ÿ‘จ๐Ÿป‍๐Ÿฆฒ

*Too nice - Too nice, not a bad thing. Just not a vibe. Everyone is not for everyone as we are clearly seeing.

♊️ - WE ARE VIBING on allllll levels and it was months in the making for our first date. Fun fact, we were both in Gavin DeGraw music videos! The day before our 2nd date he tells me he will not get the vaccine. I have to say goodbye. 

๐Ÿท - Nope. Very nope. Another one hour date.

๐Ÿ˜ - Waiting for our 2nd date, someone comes walking across the street. I’m like wowza! It’s him! The way he looks at me, makes me melt. Then came my 2nd date with blasรฉ, so I broke it off before my 3rd date with ๐Ÿ˜. Stay tuned...

Lesson: If I would have gone through and reflected on these more often, history would not repeat itself.

*still see on the dating apps

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